#she just says it so matter of factly#and this time the chair was empty for reason she couldn’t control#there was no way she could have been faster or said what she was feeling that could bring him back#a phone call wouldn’t bring him back#her blind stubborness and determination couldn’t bring him back#the chair was empty and she couldn’t do anything about it [x]
"I don’t want an apology, Castle. I just want to understand."
#listen listen listen#THE BOTTOM RIGHT ACTUALLY DESSTROYED ME#they played up the music#she got all excited#and then it was just Javi#not that it was JUST javi#but it’s javi trying to be what she’s missing#but he can’t because it’s not just about this coffee to her anymore#it’s about the hand conncected to the coffee and when it’s not who she’s looking for#it doesn’t help#it just reminds her that there’s something missing#and she keeps running into wall after wall not getting anywhere trying to find him#and as much as espo and ryan try to be there and help they know if he doesn’t come home#then part of beckett stays gone too [x]
I’m so glad with this, for 2 months she had no shoulder to cry and despite the fact that she still doesn’t trust him like before she is with him for better or for worse. And she’s sharing her feelings opening up to him and crying on his shoulder because crying alone for 2 months was the worst time of her life